This past 2 years of my 30 yr marriage have been one of the hardest periods of my life, an absolute roller coaster and during the peaks of this ride,
I have wanted to bail many times.
The more I tried to control my destination and outcome,
the more I felt out of control.
I remember many times praying for guidance because I was so lost and so broken inside.
I piled issues of my daily life on my marriage counselor ,
who could only try to give me advise and help me many times to see the situation in another way.
I tied hard to mend my mistakes and bad choices and come to terms with the shear pain I caused, but more than not I felt like I was on a hamster wheel going nowhere.
I kept telling myself I wasn't going to live like this much longer.
Then one day after another prayer I heard a voice telling me to
“let it all go and trust me, your marriage will be healed in time, surrender it all to me”
This voice I believe was God.
I tied for so long to fix it and I couldn't.
At that moment, I gave it all to God.
I stopped trying to control the outcome of my marriage.
I stopped bouncing between love and hate and just accepted the words of God.
I trusted God would mend and heal my marriage,
just as he said he would, I knew it was a process and it was time for me to trust and practice patience.
I believed all along because I watched what God was doing in my life already,
such amazing miracles, I just wanted it to be complete.
I accepted the fact there was so much brokenness still.
God had brought us so far and I knew he would bring us the rest of the way in his own time. It was a process and we had more to learn.
So from a place of so much darkness that I was sure I would never see light again,
so much pain I thought I would never live through it and so much prayer I though God would stopping hearing me.
The brokenness was big and real and I thought there was no way back from the dark hole we were in.
Our 2 marriage counselors at the time we were both going, struggled to keep us together
I never stopped trying.
I never stopped doing the right things.
I never stopped seeking the word of God
and I never gave up hope and faith.
When I finally surrendered, I started feeling changes happen.
I watch God totally envelope my husbands life,
I saw his heart change which helped me to find some sense of peace and happiness again.
I let go of all my expectation and I let God change our hearts and apply the true healing we both wanted so badly.
I believe in God because after I watched true miracles in my marriage,
I couldn't deny his true existence
Today I have peace and happiness again.
I start each day with God.
I have a marriage that feels better than it has in it's 30 years and growing.
It brings tears to my eyes thinking about our journey the past 2 years.
The roller coaster ride is over, I didn't bale,
Only God could have ended our story this way and I can't wait to see what God has
in-store for us next because I truly believe that long after the worst storms have passed that God had made us for each other and if God can heal such intense brokenness and pain,
what will he do with us when we have devoted total commitment to each other with him as our guid
ONLY GOD
Monday, November 8, 2010
Joyce Meyer Giveaway WINNER
Sorry for the delay in this post
The winner for the book giveaway is
Shellie D.
Please contact me so I can get it to you.
Congratulations!!
Monday, July 26, 2010
GIVEAWAY REMINDER DEADLINE
Just a quick reminder that the deadline
for the giveaway is Aug 7th when I will choose randomly the winner
in my Joyce Meyer book giveaway.
All you have to do to enter if you haven't
already is comment to the post showing her book.
Hugs and have a blessed day!!
for the giveaway is Aug 7th when I will choose randomly the winner
in my Joyce Meyer book giveaway.
All you have to do to enter if you haven't
already is comment to the post showing her book.
Hugs and have a blessed day!!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
♥ ♥ ~ Forgiveness ~ ♥ ♥
Have you had a wrong done to you that you feel is unforgivable?
It is possible to forgive.
From a local church "Living Hope" Gayle Haggard was a guest speaker.
If you need words on forgiveness please watch this video.
An amazing testimony thru some of her journey to forgiving her
husband with Jesus Christ as her foundation.
Please be patient with all the words before she starts talking - if you wish to skip and go directly to her talking - she starts at about 7 minutes into the video.
http://www.livinghopechurch.com/group/lhc/media_video/player/748
It is possible to forgive.
From a local church "Living Hope" Gayle Haggard was a guest speaker.
If you need words on forgiveness please watch this video.
An amazing testimony thru some of her journey to forgiving her
husband with Jesus Christ as her foundation.
Please be patient with all the words before she starts talking - if you wish to skip and go directly to her talking - she starts at about 7 minutes into the video.
http://www.livinghopechurch.com/group/lhc/media_video/player/748
Monday, June 21, 2010
♥ ~ ♥ My 1st Giveaway ♥ ~ ♥
Thanks to the generious donation of the Joyce Meyer Ministries
I have the 1st giveaway to do.
eat the cookie buy the shoes, is a hard back book written by Joyce Meyer.
It teaches us to lighten up and not be so hard on ourselfs, and reminds us
that God wants us to enjoy the lives he has given us.
An incredible book, 190 pages of inspiration
To enter all you have to do is add a comment in the
section under this post or email me directly
winner will be randomly drawn.
One entry per person
winner will be choosen the 1st week of August 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
~ ~ ~ Pain~ ~ ~
What is your pain?
How do you heal it?
Getting to the root of it is your 1st step,
sometimes it requires intervention
when it is so
big you feel consumed by it.
We all feel some pain in some
aspects of our lives.
I don't know all the answers but
have been through alot,
even I have to reach out at times
~ So what is your pain?
Feel free to share with me
if you are moved to do so.
Remember you are loved.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
~ ~ ~ Uplifting ~ ~ ~
To All You Woman Out There
~You are beautiful
You are loved
You are a gift of God~
Blessings ♥
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
~ ~ What Is Your Desire(s) In Life ? ~ ~
I wanted to put that out to everyone because
it is such an important question.
Has anyone ever asked about your dreams?
No one has ever asked me and you know it
is funny that we tend to do alot of talking in a
day but how often do we really try to listen
and get to know someone?
I hope that you all will think about this
and maybe ask someone close to you.
If you are moved to writing your own desires out,
then I encourage you to do so, it helps put a lot of
perspective on things that are important to you as well.
Have a blessed week ♥
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Thank You Joyce Meyer
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♥ Thank you Joyce Meyer ♥
for allowing
me to add your web link.
What a Blessed Day!!
Also regarding my post
requesting supporters in
a giveaway
I would like to have...
Her ministry is donating a book to my cause !!
When I receive the book,
I will post a short blog on how to enter for the giveaway.
I feel so blessed that such an amazing woman would
honor my cause and help me in this way.
Thank you Lord!!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Living By Example of God
"Follow Gods example in everything you do.
Live a life filled with love for others,
following the example of Christ..."
~ Ephesians 1:4
Are you living by the example of Jesus?
You are not better than others.
You are not always right.
Are you quick to judge others? Find faults?
Give advise when it's not asked for?
Do you pick out the faults of others,
when you are not perfect.
Do you interrupt others while they are trying to
talk to you instead of listen to them
because in doing that you are saying
what you have to say is more important
than what they have to say.
Take a look at yourself today
- what can you change about yourself?
It's wonderful to do something nice for others,
to even tell someone how you appreciate them
or love something they have done - hold your tongue
when you want to find the faults of someone,
but be quick to say something kind and positive.
Build people up, don't tear them down.
Live with understanding, heart, love & kindness.
Live a life filled with love for others,
following the example of Christ..."
~ Ephesians 1:4
Are you living by the example of Jesus?
You are not better than others.
You are not always right.
Are you quick to judge others? Find faults?
Give advise when it's not asked for?
Do you pick out the faults of others,
when you are not perfect.
Do you interrupt others while they are trying to
talk to you instead of listen to them
because in doing that you are saying
what you have to say is more important
than what they have to say.
Take a look at yourself today
- what can you change about yourself?
It's wonderful to do something nice for others,
to even tell someone how you appreciate them
or love something they have done - hold your tongue
when you want to find the faults of someone,
but be quick to say something kind and positive.
Build people up, don't tear them down.
Live with understanding, heart, love & kindness.
Monday, May 24, 2010
♥ Donations or Sponsors for a Giveaway ♥
I am looking for people who would
like to donate something for a giveaway.
It can be anything really,
A book, piece of jewelry, something handmade,
anything that a woman would enjoy.
I am also looking for sponsors
for this blog so I can promote it further.
Friday, May 21, 2010
~ ♥ ♥ My Comfort List ~ What Is Yours? ♥ ♥ ~
- Christian Music
- Cup of Tea or Coffee
- Bubble Bath
- Connection to Friends on Cafemom
- Talking with My Daughters
- Chocolate
- Walking
- Nature
- Hug from Hubby
- Holding One Of My Grand kids
- Meditating
- Prayer
There are moments in your life when you just need something for yourself.
You work hard and have given until you can't give anymore and it is simply time for you.
You are beautiful, caring, thoughtful.
What an amazing woman you are !!
Now you deserve some pampering.
We all lead such busy lives that we tend to forget
what we need to be our best and we forget "us".
Now take a moment and write your own comfort list and then choose
1 thing on your list and do it- because in that moment
it's OK to be all about you.
You are important
You deserve it.
You'll be celebrating the wonderful woman you are.
~ ~ Hugs ~ ~
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